CovKeeper22

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Hi,covkeeper I wish you amerry christmas and happy holidays ,happy new year too!GOD BLESS

you too , for sure, sounds good. thanks for the support and advice, It's good to talk to someone that seems to understand that can also maybe guide me in the right direction

you are speaking truth, man. I do depend on it to calm me down. But it does. It helped me to be more patient at times when I had none, and makes life a little more fun. Avoiding tends to be easier than dealing. Besides, I am enrolled in school and doing well. It's not inhibiting me. That is just how I feel right now. My mind in a high state can be useful, as well as my mind when it's straight. I can utilize both.
That's just how I feel right now..
But I found my cat, and in a miraculous way..
so I guess I got some thinking to do.

i'm not really willing to quit smoking weed. that's another problem.

yeah, but I guess that I don't know it is truth. and I still wish my cat would come home. I live in a city with a lot of pit bulls, bull mastiffs, city roads. There are no yards where I live. So, I'm confident something happened to her. She is just a cat though. I shouldn't let it bother me. I've got a lot to be thankful for.

I also think that the more you immerse yourself in something, the more you believe it and learn it. I feel that If I immersed myself in any religious practice I could learn to feel a spiritual calling and see something in it. All I would know is the Bible. I would be doing what could technically be considered brainwashing myself. Scientologists and other cults exist for some of these same reasons. I feel like you can make yourself believe in anything. It's human nature and a self-defense mechanism. But I know one verse in the bible that says something about how you shouldn't lean on your own understanding but trust God instead.. but that still trips me up.. maybe you can help me with this problem too.

yea, well. So, I'm not totally understanding. How did God fix that for you? And also, you're saying you would never have come to God if you had money and a job? I'm not criticizing you at all. I just want to know. And, I'm not sure if I'd turn it around. I like my life. I mean, I never did really enjoy life. But I feel like I almost had more worries when I was a Christian. Then again, it's hard to even organize my thoughts. I'm not really sure. Your testimony would probably be a good thing for me though.

Amy, it was hard. I came to the end of myself. All my relationships were destructive. All my peers were on some drug. I spent literally all money. My phone was off. I had no job. I had no direction in life even at the age 27. I started on the wrong path real early in life. It seemed like the sins of my youth were being required of me. I smoked many days away. If I tell you exactly how to turn this around will you take it or at least very strongly consider?

how do you flip your mind completely around.